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So I have been wanting more kids and not sure when to have them. And also if I really want to have another. I already have a girl and a boy. People call that the million dollar family. Should I stop? Their are reasons why I want to wait such as: I want to lose weight before we try, wait till we are financially ready, have our own home, need to catch up on sleep since my daughter doesn't sleep during the night, also certain family members saying I shouldn't have them so close together because of what they experienced and maybe just stop at 2 cause that is what they would have done.etc. Some of these reasons seemed legit to me, and others are from peoples different opinions Until I read the February 2011 Ensign. I got my answers.
What I read was exactly what I needed to hear. It is on Page 20 2nd paragraph under the picture. It talks about Gospel Truths. And how Satan tries to distract us from those truths by causing us to focus on things that are True but NOT IMPORTANT. They give an example. The gospel truth in this example is that Heavenly Father needs us to bring his spirit children to receive bodies, it is part of His eternal Plan to bring to pass their immortality and eternal life. What a great thing I get to be apart of in this great plan. I had forgotten about all this and thought only about what the world thinks (what satan wants me to think). This is where the non important truth comes in. These will distract us from Heavenly Fathers plan. Here are the examples: Babies are cute but inconvenient, adorable but expensive. Babies often smell bad and keep one awake in the night, and the more babies you have the more stretched your financial and physical resources may become, Babies can cause stretch marks and weight gain. Each of these observations are true, but none of these encourage us to embrace the saving truth about babies and their role in the plan of salvation.
I think of my children in heaven who eagerly want their turn to be on this earth, and my selfish reason for waiting or not wanting anymore. Why should they suffer? As we raise a family, we learn to be unselfish, to love others more than ourselves, to serve, to sacrifice, and to teach. Learning these helps us to be more like our Heavenly Father.
When I read that topic, I turned to my husband and told him I shouldn't have read that. Because if I just ignore what is right I won't feel as bad. So I told him what I read , and I asked him what it meant to him. He told me he has always been ok with having more kids. It has been me that decided we should wait. And that I focus to much on what others think. Which is true.
I don't want anyone to think that I don't like having babies, or that I am a horrible selfish person for wanting to lose weight before I have more kids. (What woman doesnt?) Or that because we arn't financially ready. (But honestly are we ever financially ready to raise a family?) I love having babies, I love being pregnant. Just don't like to be fat. But I was thinking there is a time to have babies, to nurture and to raise them. And there is a time to get fit. I am only 22. My life has just begun. I have plenty of time to lose the weight. This is the time to have my kids, and not think of what anyone thinks of me.
If Gods plan is about bringing to pass the immortality and eternal life I need to trust in God that he will take care of my needs. I know that we were not financially ready for our first and somehow we managed same with our 2nd. I believe he will help us with the 3rd. If he wants us to have babies he will do everything in his power to make it possible for us.
There is just so much going through my mind, I hope this all makes sense to all who reads this. So with all this we have decided to start trying. I couldn't be more at peace than ever. I am so excited. I love my family and can't wait to see it grow.
Thanks for reading and continue following my family on our journey.

My First Attempt At Blogging EVER!!!

So I have wanted to start a blog before but didn't know where to start. Lots of questions popped into my head like: What do you write about? What topics can you blog about? Do you need a certain theme to blog about? How do you customize your blog? All of this just overwhelmed me, so I just didn't do it.
UNTIL NOW. I don't know what changed. Maybe I wanted a place to share my personal life with certain friends rather than on Facebook. Or A place to look back to and reflect on all my memories and precious moments.Maybe even just a place to get away too. All these could be good reasons.
I'm thankful that my sister came over and helped me to get it all started. I enjoy reading her blog about her family.
I am still a little stuck with what to blog about. I don't want people to think that when I blog about my children that I am bragging, or think they are better than anyone's child. So I think that rather than posting about just my children, I want to blog about everything, (life in general, religion etc) I want this blog to be about reality. And what really goes on in a Family.
I want everyone to bare with me, i'm not good at this blog thing and I hope I get better at this. I want this to be a place where I can share my special moments and my not so special ones.
I hope everyone enjoys following me and my families adventure into the unknown. Who knows what lies ahead of us with a 2 year old and an almost 1 year old. Things could get interesting.
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